My good mood continues!! WOOT!! The high today is supposed to be in the mid-thirties ... and ... I. Don't. Care. So I am going to take advantage of this all-natural pain killer and ride the wave as long as it lasts. These are the days for which I now live. I will suffer through my own misery just to get 1 or 2 of these days in a row ... especially this time of year. I will not sit back and watch this wave crash, empty against the shore.
Seriously, I cannot even begin to describe this feeling. It's cold outside. There's snow and ice outside. And today, I. Don't. Care.
Why?? Why can't I feel like this all of the time?? I know that there must always be balance ... no joy without pain (blah blah blah) but ... well ... It's like a vacation. You're all excited to get there, your energy level is high, your pain level is low ... you're happy. But it's a vacation. It's temporary. At some point, we must all come back to the reality and troubles of our day to day lives ... and that part usually sux!! We enjoy the break from our own monotony. This is why most RSDers will do whatever it takes to hold on to those feelings ... those vacations. Because our monotony is horrific pain.
But see??? I kept the faith and this what happened!! I held on when all I wanted to do was let go. I griped and whined and complained and cried and screamed ... and laughed, and giggled, and stretched, and slept, and ooh ooh ooh I had a dream ... all of these forces came together so that i could have this one wave ... this one nearly perfect moment ... and if it turns into 2, I'll jump on and ride that wave as well!! I know when my wave crashes and reality returns, I'm going to have a hefty price to pay ... but ... it is SO worth it to feel like this right now!!
Ride the waves. Keep the faith. I do it because I CAN!!! ;-)
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