Structured Sanity, I Think Not

My mental faculties are totally dependent upon the government today.  I'm scatterbrained and can't focus.  I have been staring at this gosh darn computer screen for over 4 hours.  I have written the 1st few sentences of today's blog about 20 times already and then I hit "select-all/delete" (on purpose) and I start all over again.  I've tried writing about National Take Your Kid to Work Day; NFL Draft Day; RSD; the Skank; why I believe that every state needs a State Dog; nominating Kiva for President; cramps; how well my blocks are working; Bill Pay Day; the fact that I have gained a size and am finally up to a 4; how I feel guilty because there are people whom I truly care about who are suffering in one way or another and, today, I am not; coffee; hats; a few of Kiva's tricks; the pending drought from lack of snowfall and an unseasonably warm spring; my plans for the weekend; missing the Munchkins; and yogurt.  None of them have sent my imagination soaring into full-blown writing mode.  This, my dear friends, is me with writer's block ... and it's not pretty.  Even Kiva doesn't want to come near me (I think she's in the other room watching Glee re-runs).  

I have a whole list of things that I need to do today and it's all dependent on one tiny, microscopic, itty bitty detail ... the arrival of my Social Security check.  Since my mail usually doesn't arrive until after 2:30, I have a few hours to dwell on the fact that I was supposed to have it yesterday and I should be checking things off of my to-do list right frigging now!!  But alas, I sit here at the computer staring blankly at my list and wondering if I'll be able to pay my bills, get gas, get groceries, get my starter plants for my pallet herb garden, take Kiva in for her yearly shot, or get a much needed (and deserved) mani/pedi/massage.  I mean, really, I'm a fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants kind of gal, but there are a few areas in my life that require structure ... like my finances ... and my health ... and my ... ... ... nope, I guess that's pretty much everything that actually requires structure.

I did just start a new to-do list, though, out of desperation, of course.  This list will give me a feeling of accomplishment until I drive back to the Chalet to find out whether or not I can have a real felling of accomplishment.  I have faith that I will: make another pot of coffee, take a shower, put on make-up, dry my hair, get dressed, make the bed, run the dishwasher, stretch, drink the whole pot of coffee in the sun before the clouds roll in again, break up 1 more fence fight between Kiva and "Cujo," and then drive back to town to see if the 2 federal government agencies upon whom I rely have aligned their Wonder Twin powers for me.  <smh> Whatever it takes, right??  Must ... maintain ... sanity ...